A Curious Encounter with My Own Voice

An ADHD Adventure in Self-Discovery and Sound Quality Snafus

Last week, as I casually scrolled through the 'new episodes' section of my podcast app, something unexpected caught my eye – my own name, featured in one of the tthe Faster than normal Podcast’ episodes. It was a surreal moment; this was the podcast where I had been a guest, delving deeply into topics like the NUL, my brain, and, yes, my pig. The reality of being a part of this digital archive felt oddly unsettling. Despite my initial reluctance, I shared the link with my network and posted it on my LinkedIn page.

The feedback was overwhelmingly positive, yet I found myself hesitating to listen. There's something unnerving about hearing your own voice echo back at you, highlighting every perceived flaw and slip-up. It's like holding up a mirror to your soul, only to focus on the cracks.

Summoning my courage (and admittedly, with the help of a 'Concerta 27mg'), I finally opened the app. My first attempt lasted a mere four minutes, thanks to the subpar sound quality (mental note: Apple EarPods are a no-go for future recordings). The second time, my attention was fixated on every mistake – the mispronunciations, the half-finished words – it was an exercise in self-criticism.

By the third attempt, I managed to actually listen, albeit with a fair share of eye-rolling. Yet, through this journey of self-reflection, I was struck by the genuine and positive reaction from listeners, including Peter Shankman's during the podcast. It was a reminder that sometimes, our harshest critic is ourselves.

This experience has been enlightening, to say the least. It's 'taught' me about the importance of a clear flow of thoughts – a concept that, as someone with ADHD, I find delightfully tedious and almost mythical. I'm absolutely thrilled to attempt mastering this for my next podcast venture. After all, what's life without a bit of quirkiness and the charming impossibility of a perfectly streamlined thought process? Here's to a journey of self-improvement, one whimsically chaotic podcast episode at a time.